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Musicalish Cash

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People, especially with birthdays, like to give me cash. In my country, we barely use cash, and at my uni I’m not even able to pay with cash at all anymore. Everything goes with your bankcard, and I like it. There is a system that up to 25 euros you don’t need to enter your pincode, but once you go over that you have to again. In some ways it makes it easier to pay, sometimes too easy if you ask me, since people can even do it if they still your card, but only up to 25, till you have to enter that devious pincode again.

Today I got my hands on more cash it seems though, even tho I spent most of what I got from my birthday, partly on my graphic tablet, and partly on the pup crawl from the student assosiation. There are some minor things to take into account though, today I got paid in cash, because it’s lovely and a hassle to pay musicians, especially amateurs like myself by bank account. That would be such of a hassle. 

Our group or actually large quartet existed out of three first violinist, three second violinsts, a viola, which would be me, and a cello player. Each year we perform with this chorus in the church, but this time it was actually freezing, as in my hand were frozen solid at the end of the performance. It doesn’t really help that right now I’m watching the snow fall down in the dark sky, and am just sitting wrappeed in a blanket. 

I yet again have to think what I will have to with the little, but yet quite some of the cash I got today. I could buy about two books with it, as they are expensive here, but at the same time I could just save it up so I can use it later for when I want to travel again. So many options, yet I just received about five new books from the gift cards I had, so I think I’m good to go about reading for till the end of the year, hopefully.

Typical day out

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What if you have never realy been out at the pups, but every now and then you tag along with others you know. That’s what happened with me. I agreed to join in on a pup crawl my study association organised, and at first I was where did I go into, but later I was actually enjoying myself, and having a good laugh with the guys.

The upside of studying engineering is that you get to hang out with a lot of dudes, but the downside is people who know them and not you, automatically asume you’re someone’s girlfriend. I thought it was kind of funny that one of the teachers present asked one of my school buddies if I was his girlfriend. I had a good laugh about it.

You must realise I don’t drink, but just having a soda while others are having shots and beer is also fun, in some way. I laughed a lot about the stupid things my group did, one of them being the fact they hung someone in a sitting position with duct tape, hilarious, but also just the random jumping and dancing that appeared when they were getting a bit more loose than their standard normal selfs. 

The most fun I had about yesterday, is the fact, while I was still able to go to school, hence long live soda, one of my teachers called in sick. I guess it’s the survival of the fittest, also known as students. The thing about my teacher is that he was studying at my uni the year before me and just graduated and started working here. It’s quite cool to have such teacher. 

Nothing without Something

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What if the world was the only person I would be alive for? Could there be any change, or would I just be the person fooling around with my life. Danger continues to haunt me. My time as my own is not completely realistic.

There is nobody in the way to success, but, imagine that there actually is. And that person is called you. You are the only person holding yourself back. Your fears your anxious words, or your depressed look on the world. But sometimes you just have to jump in and make it, since you are the only one who can shape your world.

For me it feels different. It is as if I know what I want to do, but at the same time I’m on my own. What nobody ever realises is that you need yourself to continue. I wonder though, what if I lost myself in the process of becoming of who I am. Am I still myself then? Or are my thoughts not my own anymore, but are they just send down to the world himself.

I’ve been thinking of this as I finished John Green’s last book, Turtles all the way down. He managed to put it in such way it is realistic, that it doesn’t matter of being you at all, but that you can be whoever you want to be. It might cause you to lose some of the people you have around, but you don’t ever truly lose yourself in the process. No matter what comes at you, you’ll fight to get through, and that is what keeps us going. Forever.